Day 7: it’s my bby :-)! So glad to be home omg
I can’t sleep because a scenario keeps on replaying over and over again in my mind.
I have feelings, yes I do, but in this day dream/thought, I have absolutely 0 feelings whatsoever. I know I have been trying to detach my emotions from some past events that happened. I know I also try to keep my emotions at bay, but I still have them.
I’m afraid I am going to lose them all together, and I would hate that.
Day 6! So this CD has been playing in my car for the past day or so, and I have been obsessed with the songs! When a friend asked me what the playlist was, I was so confused because I thought my phone was playing the whole time. When I checked, I realized it was a CD I received from a fellow blue devil! There was a CD exchange when we were incoming freshmen where you would exchange CDs of your favorite songs! I was so excited! I wish I knew who Emily was though! I need to tell her about this :-)!
Anonymous said: hey girl! love the blog! refreshingly cute and genuine. plus, the video? you are so pretty! loved it!
oh my goodness! Thanks so much :-)!!!
OMGGGG DID YOU SEEEEEEE?
I uploaded my first beauty vlog! I am so super excited, wow!
I would always have the most ridiculous reasons as to why I shouldn’t have a vlog: too much effort, too much time, too big, too ugly, can’t do makeup.
But today as I looked myself in the mirror, I realized these reasons were dumb because (as far as the self conscious reasons go) I SHOULD NOT CARE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK ABOUT ME!
So I decided to go for the video, because if I don’t do it now, I will never do it. I hope to upload 2-3 videos a month, and each video takes a total of about 2-3 hours (because I suck at technology haha.) I should be able to give up up to 9 hours per month for this project <3.
This gave me the motivation to stay awake today. I worked from 1-8pm in the field: registering people to vote and canvassing. It was definitely an experience, but I miss my intern corner where there is AC and I do not have to worry about fly aways and melting makeup (HAHAH WHAT A JOKE MY MAKEUP STAYS ON FOREVER!)
Today was awesome. I feel rejuvenated :-).